I have officially started the 3rd year of my BA Film course and possibly the very last year of my education. I am both very excited to go back to the busy days of filmmaking and terrified with the perspective of graduating. Every single year of my education at Middlesex University is so much different from the previous one in terms of the work I am doing. Looking back at the beginning of the course when I did not quite know what I wanted to do and, most importantly, did not have a clue about filmmaking I can tell I have progressed so much throughout the past two years. All I had back then was passion for photography, love for films and a little background of film production and here I am getting ready for my dissertation project that will hopefully help me build up a strong future showreel.
Second year was possibly the best and most productive year of my educational life so far. The production process of our final films was extremely stressful and time consuming. I have been working my fingers to the bone trying to achieve the best possible outcome which I am not necessarily happy with. However, I surely am proud of my work, the experience and knowledge I have gained, as well as the incredible time I have spent on sets with all the wonderful, talented and passionate people. I know I did my best and I know the mistakes I have made, that I will try to avoid making in the nearest future .
What I find the most motivating in the work we are required to pursue in 3rd year, is that I can finally focus on my field of interest. Without a second thought I took up a role of a Director of Photography for my Film Dissertation Project. Along with Cinematography, I am planning to spend a fair amount of time in the Colour Grading suite throughout the stage of Post Production. Last year I was a DOP for three of the final films, I was also a part of a crew, as a Camera Operator or 1st Assistant Camera on three sets. I have spent an extremely productive time on six different sets in general, waking up at 6am and coming back home past midnight almost every single day for at least a month. Finally, I was a Colourist for seven different productions and I have spent countless hours in Digital Media Workshop room and Colour Grading suite staring at the colour wheels for around three months. Never have I enjoyed the feeling of exhaustion this much, no matter how stressful it was. I believe that only proves why I have always wanted to combine my future career with passion.
I do not have many regrets from last year, even though I can honestly admit I was overworked and that was purely my mistake. This year as DOP I am obliged to get involved in the minimum of three different productions, as well as to take up at least two secondary roles. As far as the secondary roles are concerned, I am already a part of multiple productions, among other things, as a Camera Operator, 1st Assistant Camera and Colourist. For my major DOP role I am still in search of two more productions, as I would like to hear the scripts being pitched next month before I make a decision. However, I have already agreed to join one production. As a Colourist, I set myself a limit of maximum four films, which is already a bit scary but I like to challenge myself and four is still better than seven! I took up way too much work last year trying to help everybody, not miss out on any of the productions and gain as much experience as possible. I still do not believe it was a bad thing. However, I did not live up to the expectations I had towards myself. I want to keep myself as busy this year but I will focus on the quality of my work, instead of the amount. That is one most important lesson I am bringing with me into 3rd year. I would love to be a part of every single production but I am just one person and so I will put a lot of effort into the productions I have joined as a DOP, as I really want to be involved in those to the highest level.
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